Sex, fucking, juker,stuffing the turkey.

My sex drive...Man.

Lately it's all I can think of. I haven't done or put anything different into my body lately, but yet all I ever think about is sex. All day.

In class I think about how I want to fuck the teacher on her stomach. In between classes on campus I pick out how I would do each and every hottie that walks by. At home I look at porn every night before I fall asleep. If someone walked into my house to borrow a cup of sugar I'd probably whip down my pants first.

I have nooo idea why. I can't remember a time when I was this bad all of a sudden. I'm popping them in class, at home watching Entourage, on the bus when we drive by somebody in a skirt. It's getting to be embarrassing, even though I haven't been busted for it yet.

Unfortunately, despite dropping down to 180lbs on a good day and looking tuffer and more badass then I have in my life, I have zero confidence. None. I'm nervous talking to girls in my history class for fucks sakes. Or I turn them away, pretending like I'm not interested or too cool or some shit; who knows what goes on upstairs.

I haven't actually picked up a girl in ages, I haven't ever really charmed anybody before into thinking I'm super. And now that I'm so horny and basically seeing all women as walking blow up dolls, I doubt any sort of wit will come out. I'm more likely to get laid when I get thrown in jail for staring at some twelve year olds tits at this rate.

I really need a boost. If I knew that if I went out somebody would approach me and come on to me, all of this could go away. I haven't been told I'm good looking in so long, I feel so left out and ugly lately. I've posed every day in the mirror for myself, flexing at every angle, but I still see imperfections and folds of fat on myself and that's all.

I eat soooo healthy. Today for example;
Two eggs and toast, ham and chicken, protein shake for breakfast.
An apple and a banana for snack.
Sandwich and another apple for lunch.
Mr. Noodles and a hot-stuff for snack.
Pasta for dinner, dark chocolate aero for dessert.
Protein shake before I hit the hay.

I know the latter part of the day isn't super healthy, and I know it seems like alot. By constantly eating and putting nutrition in my body, it keeps my metabolism up and running and helping keep my weight down. As well, it helps build muscle. Also why I'm tanking down so much protein.

I mean, I do look great. I am proud of myself, but at this point I really need someone to tell me that. I feel fantastic and cocky right up until I open my dumb mouth and either blow somebody off or fumble with my words. Mr. Too cool or Mr. Drop the Ball.

On reflection, maybe it's all the protein that's doing this. Weird. I kind of like being so horny though, I get to look at way more girls than normal.

Fuck it, I may just put webcam shots up and then update my Facebook status to "I WANT A BLOWJOB."

Work and play can never be mixed the way you do.