If I were a booooy!

There are a lot of days where I actually think what it would be like to be a girl.

Before I start in on this, I'm going to say that I am in no way thinking of changing my sex or trying to be more feminine. I don't sit around and daydream about it, nor do I really want to be one. There is just times (Like now) when I wonder what it would be like and envy some of the aspects.

Let's face it, being fat as a male or female puts you in an awkward position. Some people are able to pull off the funny fat guy thing, or BBW as girls are sometimes known on the 'net. But for the most part on either side of the sex fat people face harsh judgements and heavy prejudice. I'm lucky not to be fat because I honestly don't think I'd have the drive to get myself out. I'd have to have one hell of an influence.

I want to know what it's like to be a girl though.

I feel like every last bit of my looks or body shape I've had to earn. I've never been outstandingly handsome or well defined in any part of my body. It's fair to say that in the looks department I'm outstandingly average.

However, I get the feeling that being outstandingly average with a girl would be fantastic. All you need is a pair of tits and a bit of a silver tongue (Both things can be purchased or learned) and you're set. You can work your way through anything, get into the right places, get with the right guys with money, be on a billboard, the Internet, porn, and do quite well for yourself doing so.

Guys can have the tongue and go places, but at some point in any mans life he will most likely get into a physical confrontation or be looked down on for not being in shape. This poses a real problem and even the smoothest talker can be pushed around by a big set of arms. And trust me, unless you have real good genetics big arms are not easy to come by; it's damn hard to get the definition and size you see in the media. Those guys have worked damn hard for it, I guarantee it.

It seems like women are always pined after, men are expected to make the play on them and "seduce." You hardly ever hear of a women having to go after a guy; I've met tons of girls that think I'm good looking and only found out weeks/months/years later because we got to be friends and they told me. They never had any inclination to talk to me, fully expecting me to make a move if I was interested even though they were.

It does feel like there is more pressure on men to perform and be a provider- a strongman, a man of talent. I know women in professions have to work harder because of the prejudice handed down by men at the top, but women can use their sexuality as a tool to work their status up. How often can a man do that? Have you ever heard of a women that kept advancing on a man get reported for sexual harassment?

Sometimes I wish I had a pair of tits and a short dress and could walk down to a club and dance for everybodys attention. I wish I could be that centre, that even though I may not be the prettiest as long as I knew how to work my hips and toss my hair all the boys would be after me. I wish that if I posted a picture of myself on the 'net it would get a million hits because I knew how to work a camera angle. I don't think these things are degrading; I would find them empowering that I have a power over someone else and I could get them to do what I please.

I guess the big reason I'm writing this is because I sprained my elbow at the gym and am sitting at home icing the shit out of it, wondering how long before I can go back and try and raise my male status by putting on muscle. More muscle means more respect at a first glance.

I really need a pick-me-up.