"A cold streak indicates that at one time you were hot.."

I don't know man.

I've been single for a year and a half now. This is the longest period of time I've been single since I've started dating, and even then when I was single I had prospects or chicks that liked me. I've got nobody, nobody that even bats an eye at myself or even anyone I'm really interested in.

The worst part for me is that were this not happening and I was getting laid like crazy or had someone special I'd feel so fucking fantastic. This is the best I've felt about my body in a long time and I see room for improvement and progress that I've done. I feel stronger and less self concious, I like to look in the mirror from (Almost!) every angle and I've finally noticing real progression and dominance in the gym.

So back to old mugshot. Am I ugly? Jesus.

I really need a good photo of myself; sober, that I can refer to. I don't have any camera and the one on my laptop is too dark, which is a shame because I think I'd be posing up a storm for myself otherwise. I don't have anyone to send nudie shots though, which is half the fun.

The other thing that keeps running through my head as I look at girl after girl and say no in my head is Evelyn. I remember how perfect I thought she was and how everything felt. I really wonder if I'll ever have that again, and how will I react if I do get that back. Will I cherish it or will I be afraid of what's to come when she leaves? They always do.

I'm surrounded by beautiful women every day: hot girls, cute girls, sexy girls, playful girls etc etc etc. I don't talk to any of them and none ever want to chat or even sit by me.

It's making me think Evelyn was the end of an era of arrogance and boyish good looks. I'm just an average old looking dude now.

Ohh I'm not bored at all, you can call me when you want to call.