How do you present yourself in a normal, healthy way these days?

Alot of the habits I keep are healthy, yet alot more are not. I've had a rough and confusing past, mingled in with mistakes and scars that don't easily fade. I'm still pretty fucked up and not 100%, and it's hard to say when that will happen.

I think that's my biggest chink in my armor, I don't know when I'll just be able to laugh off all of the major insecurities and fears I have left over from Evelyn and the solid wall of a nightmare that followed. What I really need is a confidence booster, something to get my ego and swagger back in full, not just some stupid facade.

Fuck, I really need to get out and have something I could even jokingly call a social life. Asides the group (Which still won't hang out unless we're drinking. >:/) and the usual boytoys, I'm alone all the time. It's been so long since I've even flirted properly with a girl, and I was so young and naive back then. How do adults flirt? Do I act mature or lighthearted and funny?

I really need to take some time to figure my own dumb self out.