Let's fucking fuck you fucker.

I can't count how many times I've gotten sex as a Christmas or Birthday present.

The sad thing is, it's never any better. The other individual never makes much more of an effort to please me or do anything really awesome; the best I might get is a corset with some stockings or a longer BJ.

Seriously, I can those any time I want? I'm not complaining, but if I'm going to be getting "it" as a gift, I honestly do expect a little more than a casual fuck where I end up getting myself off.

I remember two years ago I had sex for Christmas with an ex and it was bar none the best I've ever had. No questions.

Having sex with someone you care about deeply is such an expierience and it makes every other girl look so bad. When you care and the other cares for you it's a crazy thing, you go into the bedroom wild with passion because you know the person opposite you want's you just as bad as you do them. I remember having sex for hours on end, only stopping for drinks of water and laying into each other twice as hard afterwards. I remember being breathless, sweaty, but above all craving her touch at the end of it.

I remember the foreplay being unimaginable, BJ's that would make your skin crawl and your legs go numb. Going down on her and giving her orgasm after orgasm as you went, finding new and exciting things to try on her. And the sex that followed was just so incredible, she didn't have to try to be sexy while you fucked her, she just was. But when she tried and took control of your body, you lost all function and just did what she said because that's what you wanted more than anything in the world.

Her looks could stop you and you would know what to do to her in a heartbeat, you could feel her desire and skin from across the room. She wanted me to cum as bad as I wanted her to and wouldn't stop until I was satisfied.

This was two years ago. What I've been doing now is just so unsatisfying and boring.

I've been having sex with this girl for nearly three years, give or take on and off between relationships. We know each other. I know what to do to get her off is like understatement of the decade. Yet she still doesn't know how to satisfy me.

Clumsy, awkward dirty talk. Stumbling over positions and what to do. Not being sexy or sexual, we just basically have sex once in awhile whenever we feel like it. We're not a couple and I want to quit this, I'm so very bored.

Sex is sex, but I want someone that wants me back. Wants to feel me like I felt her. The very worst part of that is that the relationship was loosely based on sex it was unforgiveable, in fact if we never had sex again (Which is looking good right now.) I wouldn't care whatsoever. I cared about her so much it didn't matter, I'd do whatever it takes to make her happy.

Instead, I'm alone, cold, bored, and craving attention. Maybe I should go out and find someone.

Merry Christmas. I'm so glad this whole rush is over.